Mood: I know why now.
Music: 放了爱 by 郭美美
Prayer: Let her give you a chance.
Thinking: This is my retribution, that's what I understand.

Today woke up really early at 6.30am :D went to Kovan to jog (: called my cousin to come down too of course :D i ran 1.6 km and walked 400 m :D yahoo to JESLYN! :D I ran 1.6 km without stopping and panting! :D big improvement :B muwahahahs! went to McDonald's for breakfast :D I (L) HOTCAKES :B muwahahas! (: went back home to clean up and went to pay respect to the ancestors in the temple (: after that went grandmumy's house for lunch~ It's boring there :O *fast forward* than went back home and slept! :D i'm just really tired this days ): i don't know why too D: argh! i'm going to be a panda soon :O hohos! anyway, i was talking to Yuuki-koi and i cried like hell! :D she's the second person that can make me cry like shit :X the first is actually someone really really really precious, and no, it's not daddy (: he's the one i love so much ): i was saying that :
- I was never a good stead, because I've hurt him so much before, and I ended him misery for more misery and now he's way better off without me,
- I was never a good daughter, because I've hurt them time and again,
- I was never a good sister, because I've bullied him tons of times,
- I was never a good friend, because I keep PS them,
- I was never a good student, because I didn't put in the best effort in my work,
- I was never a good leader, because I feel like a dictator.
I WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR THIS WORLD BECAUSE I'M A FAILURE.
So Yuuki-chan reprimanded me :\ and well, I still believe that i was never good enough for this world and i should never be born into this world too good for me. ): and I found out why i ain't friends with him. Because I ignored him. What goes round comes around. I promised him that we'd be friends and we could still sms, but in the end, i didn't reply that message, because i don't know if i should just lie or tell the truth. and i'm stupid enough to ignore the message. and i've lost his trust just like that. see? I'm just a failure that should just rot in a corner and die off. no one will care. it's my retribution that i'm not his friend at all. Li Jiayan will be really happy to see that i've done some reflection. refer to ai-no-tegami for a more emotional post. ):

Your Murderer;
Lulu Lamperouge.