credits to salinaa on deviantART. i feel so frustrated now. mixed emotions. frustrated/sad/angry/terrified/confused etc. just list down all those really bad emotions. you name them. I just feel that fate is just toying with my feelings and my life. Jiayan moron, Isabel and Sandy will have a clue on what i'm talking/ranting about. I was like shocked when Ms Suraiya/Ms Teo said about the upcoming programme-that's-yet-to-be-confirm-but-it'll-be-confirmed-for-sure. Guess what CCA it's involving. haha. i'll give you a sweet if you answer correctly. no, i'm kidding i hate my fcuked up life! school work is stress enough. now i'm having emotional problems? right. you got to be kidding me. let's hope the one next up is health problem. probably heart failure. just and my life quick and swift. jiayan's going to rant about not going to Japan and such anyway, girl guides was all the same. foot drill, fake smiles, fake laughter, but true enjoyment, for me that is. it's a miracle that i'm able to smile after that terrible programme i told to me. ): i'm currently sweating like mad and such. i need to rant at jiayan moron. D: lol! jiayan! be ready for the next combine humanities! counsel is needed, just someone listening to me is enough. i'll just tell my parents and i think i might cry from frustration. i need a bath, quickly. too bad i'm having dinner first

they day was all the same. i've got a sentence repeating in my mind. "There is no forever, because good things dont last." i agree with the sentence. it's just so true. and i was notified by jiayan, although i know, that no one knows WHY i'm in singlehood. hahaha. if everyone knows, i kind of know what are the reactions. there will be 3 kinds of reactions:
#1 - supports Jeslyn and probably comforts, which, by the way, i dont need them.
#2 - shouts of "JESLYN, YOU ARE A BITCH!" from people~ yea right like i careeee~
#3 - gasp and shout "YOU SURE!? WTF!? than you patching back?"
let me answer that questions first. no. (: why am i going to do something like that, and make myself angry all over again? it's plain paranoid and plain dumb (: think what ever you want. i dont frigging care.

if god's there, curse you. how can you toy with my feelings and my life. i was watching "Xin Hua Duo Duo Kai" and Machi told Haitong something, "Uncle said that being jealous is not bad, because it shows how much i care." haha. there is no use, if the other party is like ... nevermind. i said that before. boo hoo. i dont believe anymore. i only know jealousy is just some stupid paranoid emotion. yes, my new fav. word is "paranoid" (:

Tokyo, my love
Lulu Lamperouge♥
(PS: this world is plain paranoid. trust me.)